Sorry.

I am so sorry that I pushed you away in the process of setting my life straight.
I wish I could take back the things I have done in the past to you.
But as it stands it can not be changed.
My only friend.
I wanted to get away from someone else....
It WAS not you, dear friend of mine.
I needed you to know that.
I want desperately to make you happy, to see, to feel you happy.
Please smile for me.
I will do whatever it takes, please.
Please release the pain, the unsound words.
Inflict the wrong thoughts on me.
I don't mind it.
I am here for you, when you need me.
It's the only thing that seems connect me to you.